replies..more replies

i,angelyn the blogger,am deleting all the posts i had on anything i've put down bout the "incident"..
Too many people have been coming in for all sorts of WRONG perceptions on wanting to "watch a show"
so tt's it.

OJT

the OJT was ok i guess..
it was a lil' weird to wait by the sign-in sheet til i spotted my mentor by observing which name she signed at..
she was a lil' quiet at first,but she started teaching me lots..
i mean LOTS..
there are so so much more to learn!!
wat track sheet..wat meet flight..
i do arrival n go into the aerobridge,wait for it to close the gap,omg..
make me so so giddy..wanted to puke my guts out sia..
the negative part was tt i felt sooo extra with all the other malay GE staff talking among themselves..
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now gonna be 5 am..
just came back to Don's place..
we went bowling at marina super bowl after i finished work..
next to us got 4 guys..
omg!!!!!
JOE was his player name..
he had a sweat on..
he looked sooo good when he bowled..
it was just his stance..
amazing..
couldn't keep my eyes off the way he bowled..seriously..
he and his mentor and other ppl had so many strikes..
some played better but...
there was just something..
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will go mid-night bowling again soon..haha!!

BABIES!!!

baby Alester is sooo cute...


anyway,tose wondering bout my niece Almira..
here r 2 pics of her...
before and now..
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her's pic of the entry!!!!!

tt's some time ago at my sis's condo...

me,marie,tang n joline..

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i'm so sick..

every chinese new year i'm sick!!!!

bio was boring today..

i swore i'll listen for the 1st time this sem..

but.........

yah..i listened...to my i-pod...

haha...

i'll never swear again haha!!!

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went to eat AJISEN wid pris and her cousin...lilian??

she is SOOOOO faqmiliar but just dunno where i've seen her B4..sigh..

took neoprints..as usual..

bought so so so many VCDs...

then on fri go school nvr go lecture..

then go airport send marie..

so sad....haha....no lah!!!

quieter than usual..

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so the "mystery pressie" tt Jo got for marie was a cup wid big boobies...

sigh....

haha!!!!!

i've lotsa photoshop related stuff yesterday..
so each entry will have a picture of the day..
so i'll start off with a nice one..
it will get worse and worse...
haha...

watched america's next top yesterday..
wah.....
i USED to like JAYLA..
i mean even if it's tt nik's fault for blowing her top,she didn't need to be so...
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recieved msg and call bout my airport job..
guess i'm not quitting afterall..
i'll be goin for on-job-training next week and week after..
i mean..i realli wanna concentrate on my studies(sadly,not HAPPENING)
but if i don't work..
i realli won't have a single cent to use..
i'll have to take $$$ from mum..(not willing..)
she's worse of than me as it is..
hopefully my $5K comes back to me..
so,i HAVE to work..
it's a must..i was so confused this morning wen i woke up to the msg..
it said:"EKA here,angelyn,if u want to continue part-time,it's acceptable..OJT will begin frm 31jan to 4 feb"
well,i replied:"ANGELYN here,i want to continue weekends since it's possible but the reason i work weekends is tt i have school..how to go for training wen all those days i have school..AND EXAMS.."
he called to ensure tt i can have training on the weekends..so it's cool..
lucky for me..
or there's no way i can survive with no salary..no way..
i'll have to start giving the dreaded excuse of :"NO MONEY" for lotsa things if i were to be outta job..
i've been hearing tt NO MONEY excuse ALL MY LIFE..
sick of it..haha..no offence to ppl who tink i'm tokin bout u..
i'm NOT pin-pointting anyone at all..there are too many of u haha..
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marie's FINALLY back in skool after a 2-day disappearing stint..
with a new haircut,lenses and tan..well,it's red at the moment..
she'll be disappearing to china for a couple of days too..
it'll be boring without her.
to marie:hope u enjoy the trip..bring some china guys back..those in our skool r...not so good..haha
******
fri,after skool(which is tml) will be heading over to airport..
maybe can see marie off too..
anyway,back to the point,me goin out wid pris..
buy some clothes(MAYBE),neoprints,cut hair AGAIN,maybe a movie..
who noes...
but then,we love goin to do our hair together then taking lotsa photos..haha
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can't wait!!!!!!!!
will draw bout 100 bucks from my 250 bucks savings in my account..
the 250(SUPER LOW SALARY) is from dec's pay..
to buy and shop and buy and shop...sigh..
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i suddenly tot of another "weird"(<-as my frenz call it) question..
wat's the diff between buy and shop?
buy is wen u pay for something..
shop...hmm.. isn't it the same??
kayz..goin off..
zhang shan's here!!!!

A for psychology..

most people got As..

but if i didn't study..

no way would there be an A..

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it's freezing in the e-plaza..

goin do project soon..

new blog template..

kinda expresses my wonderland dream..

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my com is FINALLY up at home..

my room's in a smaller mess than before..

shiqa's makin a blog now..yay!!

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tt's bout it..

everyone's studying..

oni me..i'm sooo not..haha

super tired..

read my last book half way til 2am last nite..

tml should be able to return all 8 books to tampines library..

haha!!

*SNORES...

omg!! iv drip

i'm caught..again..

i'm mad over him..again!!

he looked so cute..again..

same lift..again..

ears red..again..

omg..all over again!!

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i miss school so much..

i love it!!

tt's oni coz i HATE attachment..

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omg..

i'm still in my wonderland..haha!!!

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anyway..

on sat..had a couple of problems..

depressed..

BUT..

then on air newzealand..

there was this like school or something checking in..

there was this tall caucasian..

he had a shock of blond hair..long..

as in..erm..

not overly long..

he tied it..

a kinda low tie..it was round shoulder length..

i realli dunno howta describe it..

but it was soo soo nice..

he was soo soo good looking..tall..

he,as i observed,did not mix too much with the other guys tt fooled around..

he was more of the quiet but accepted all around kind..

he has been the closest thing i've seen in my life tt's something like the rouges and rakes i've been dreaming about from all my love story books..

the type that loves his family and wife as strongly as he loves himself..

or even more..

i was soooo captivated..

it's a bit wierd to use this word but...

it's true..captivated..

i could hardly keep my eyes off him..

he maybe my age..

if i didn't work at the airport..i'll say he's 20+?

but working there so long has proven to me tt 20 sumthings are actually 15 or 16..

it may be weird to understand wat i'm trying to say but..it's juz liddat..

they ALL look soooo much older than they are..

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i might have to end my "career" at the airport soon..

as much as i hate it at times..

it's part of me,who i am..

the bosses wants to move all GE staff to departure and arrival..

how am i to go for training when i have school??

i'll be sad wen the day comes..

sad

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wee and marie kinda confirm going genting..

told my mum to get tix and ask bout the hotel ready..

cannot wait!!

if oni he'll follow..(in my dreams)

instead of going for fittings..

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broken

my life has been a little dark lately..

pray i'll find the light in it..

this pic i took wid my cam..i love it..

it's the moon..on 56's concert night

well...

after yesterday's entry..

opposite tampines library,

i was waiting for bus 28 home..

bus 27 passed by..

cup was by the window..

like..omg!!

i was so stunned..

i tot he saw me but realised he didn't..

he was looking outwards tho..

i got a shock..i realli realli turned cold..

mad coldness..

then i was happy.happy..

wat were the chances of him being by the window..

wat were the chances tat of all the buses i look up,it's his..

wat were the chances tt of all the 7 windows on the single-deck bus,it was his..

wat were the chances indeed...

tt i always wondered how he came to work..

i knew he had an ez link..

not a car..

now i know more....

contented?

nope..

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tang had her 1st doclove during sem 1..

marie had hers like the 1st week..

finally..mine..

today..

shirley oso today..i admit her's cuter

but i like mine just fine..wahaha!!

shirley is giving up brad pitt

marie's giving up sangwoo(cheng jun ge)

tang's given up IV..

haha..

hardly slept again..

i tink i'm a typing zombie now..

horrid pax

i'm tired..

physically

mentally

soul-fully (??)

i've been doin so many baths tis morning..

i tink i see sponging trolley til scared..

my ah-too-cut ah ma still there..

super cute sia..

decided to to use her condition as my case study..

we ask her say 'S'..

she bviously can't say it well wid no teeth..

sounds cute cute cute..

got new doc in the hse..

shiok!!

name is..

hmmmmm i have it but betta not put sia..

not a nice name..

but he's cute enuf..

marie oso eyed on him juz tt..

she remembered tt she JUST fell in love wid rain..

so she say give up..

i CANNOT CANNOT wait for skool to re-open..

obviously tang n marie have 'given up..'

ppl who noe wat i'm tokin bout,mark my words..

the next lecture there is,marie would be tokin bout his 'kissable lips' AGAIN..

LEAVE THE POOR GUY ALONE!!!

HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway..did i mention i'm at the lib AGAIN..

after attachment today,i go airport wid nessa collect pay cheque..

freakin little $$$ la..

idiot..just because i nvr work for 3 days then less by round 80 bucks??

ass....i shouldn't have gone for 56 concert..

tix 150..plus 2 days off,80..

chase 100??

so spent $$330$$ on them??

sigh..

the weekend was horrid on sun..

stress..

pax scolded me for nothing..almost cried..

after he and his G.F see i like gonna cry they SUDDENLY say not my fault..

say company's fault..

haha..it's funny the way they changed so fast..

i was tinking to myself tt i so obvious gonna cry meh??

haha..

then after tt i ok ready..

but stress..

i was the oni business class counter for silkair..

got queue then com just crashed..

had to on system on diff com..

walao..

i'm really tired..

i hope and keep up with my life..

as i was slowly passing

an orphan's home one day

and stopped there for a moment

juz to watch the children play

alone a boy was standing

and wen i asked him why

he turned wid eyes tt could not see

and he began to cry:

*chorus*

i'm nobody's child

i'm nobody's child

just like a flower

i'm growing wild

no mummy's kisses

and no daddy's smile

nobody wants me

i'm nobody's child

ppl come for children

and take them for their own

but they all seem to pass me

and i'm left here all alone

i noe they'll like to take me

but wen they see i'm blind

they always take some other child

and i'm left behind

*chorus*

i'm nobody's child

i'm nobody's child

just like a flower

i'm growing wild

no mummy's kisses

and no daddy's smile

nobody wants me

i'm nobody's child

no mummy's arms to hold me

or soothe me wen i cry

sometimes

it gets so lonely i wish tt i could die

i'll walk the streets of heaven

where all the blind can see

and just like all the other kids..

there'll be a home for me..

*chorus*

sobz

i just got me heart broken..
ben has been dating jo frm SClub..
omg...

those in peach colour are MY comments..

Jo O'Meara (S Club 7) & MY Ben Adams (A1)

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Jo is dating fellow pop star Ben Adams.

Like Jo, Ben is a refugee from a successful pop band. The singer was in boyband A1 and recently made a comeback himself with his solo single Sorry.

"We met in Telford. Very romantic," laughs Jo.

"We were doing the same gig and obviously A1 were around the same time as S Club so I just went and said hello really. We had a little chat, had a laugh and swapped numbers and started texting a little bit.

"Then we met up and went out for a drink and we texted a few more times and went out again. It spiralled from there really. It was a text romance," she laughs.

"Nah, we just get on really well. We don't know what we're doing with it yet. It's very new."

Having known Ben for some time, there must have been some sort of attraction before?
"I secretly fancied him," admits Jo.

me: *BITCH..i knew IT!!!!! i knew u liked him!!!! ass!!!*

"I'm going to admit that now. And when he came back as a solo artist I did think, 'Mmm, that's very nice to see'. He looks very cute now. But no there was no romance before because I was with somebody else."

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tt was BEFORE..ben now says..

quotes from his fan-site:

"just to let you know im not with jo anymore and havn't been for a while.

still good friends so thats cool.

so, all in all, life is good and i look forward to seeing you when i get back!

P.S and i broke with her as i realised after 7 long years tt my one true love is Angelyn Tan from singapore..i miss her"

wahahaha!!!

ok..i'm sad..dunno wat i'm wahaha-ing about anyway..

attachment scenarios

i wanna make sure bling noes i love her too!!!!!!!!!!
cause she wasn't in the kc nor nyp section...haha
I LOVE U BLING*...
super glad u've opened up!!!
and to bhinisa..i love u too!!! paiseh..forgot add u in the last entry..
to the peepz i love in my ward
susu.. (don't fall k..)
florence n winnie (talk to me!!)
yaling n shirley (stop juz stop...*puts hand up in ur face*)
zhangshan (stop threatening to slap me ok!!wahaha)

*****replies to tag*****

to marie...u have SOOO much anger..of coz vent in blog la..
and wat false hope??
u urself easy to bluff..
everytime i go:"mariiiiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.........."
u chiong out..wahaha!! no fate la ok!!
ok..to be true..i've my eyes on a doc or trainee doc..i'm not telling..
let's see if u can guess it right..
to pris..i am updating..i've nvr been consistant u noe..
haha..i lovelovelovelovelovelove u too!!
see..i have one more 'love' than u!!haha!!
tang:u dun think he's extra nice coz u haven talk to him yet..
but i'm NOT asking u to talk to him..
i rather u tink he's a normal guy than talk to him..
i mean..
never mind..dun talk to him ok!!
and u wanna noe wat i did to marie??
i everytime bluff her tt her trainee doctor chong is in the ward then she'll RUN..
haha..*to marie:LOSER!!*
and one last thing tang........leave the poor doc and jimmy ALONE!!
jamie:thx jamie...tt seriously meant alot..
and..dun cry k..i'll TOTALLY freak if u do..
ppl like nessa i can totally handle..u...i cannot..haha..*nessa's gonna get me..*
nessa:i'm UPDATING..
and knowing u..i find the urge to reassure u...
the last sad sad entry is sooo not bout u so chill k..haha..*just in case..*
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now bout the attachment..

scenario 1:
i push heavy woman into toilet..
she pees..
pungent..
clean her..
push to one side..
she shits on the floor..
*rmb..ON THE FLOOR..*
shit ready..
then clean..
clean ready..
vomits twice..
like...THANKS OKAY!!!!!
walao..

scenario 2:
i find old woman..super cute face..
tho super fierce..
sleeping practically into her porridge..
yes...she was eating halfway..

scenario 3:
old woman GRABS call bell..
refuses to let go..
i try to take it..
she chants and chants..
as if warding me off..
i asked her if i'm a ghost or human..
she says OF COZ HUMAN..
then why the fuck is she acting like she's warding me away..
like some evil spirit..
another thanks!!

scenario 4:
mentally unstable mid-30s woman
changes infront of me..
and insists on putting tampon on..also infront of me..

scenario 5:
old woman..
changes clothes and kar-pokes(read it as it is..it means steal) pyjamas
tries to leave cubical..
insists on going to ABC hospital when she IS in ABC hospital..
i had to bluff her it's her boss's b'day and he was giving her an off day..

these are a couple of scenarios one MIGHT meet at a certain ABC hospital..
kill me pls.....
10 bucks a day...
THANKS yah..

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i have not been having enough sleep..
hari raya slept til 5 pm..
becoz of tt,i haven't been sleeping at all for the last 2 nights..
i was so so sick this morning..
but was much better after some shit-cleaning..
*pukes*

i'm being sacarstic la k..
is tt how u spell it??i'm blurred now..
is there such a word as blurred??
hmmmmmmmmmmm
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can't wait for the weekends..
get my cheque..
then mon bank in...
hopefully wed can touch and smell cash la hor..

new year!!

2006!!!!!!!!

tt's like freakin fast!!

i've been living for 17 years..and still feeling hopeless

well..time passes fast..

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count down in town..

tang got grabbed..

i guess i didn't actually take enuf heed frm piggy n kerensa last year..

since it didn't happen to me,i didn't bother...MISTAKE

next year,we are SOOO goin to sentosa's foam party..

at least won't have those fucking blacks..

it's not a racism..it's tt handful of ppl..

immigrants to be specific..

my perspective has fuckin changed ALOT!!

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people change..AGAIN..

it's hurting more and more..

it's not like an arguement or anything..

new people,new changes,new environment..

most importantly..new priorities..

i'm not angry tt they change..

ok..maybe a lil'..

but why izzit i'm still left behind..not changing..

10 yrs of a KCian..do things change tt fast??

really??

can the strong kc friendship be pushed away so easily??

if so,why can't i do the same??....

i don't actually wanna change..KC...first..INTEGRITY..

wat fuckin happened??

but if everyone's changing,i don't wanna feel hurt coz i'm sticking to it..

god noes,i'm hurt..

u might noe..u might..

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*new year resolutions??*

i don't know..really..

couldn't care less to be true..

not like anyone hu does it will actually stick to it..

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1st day back in xxx hospital..(reason for not puting it..i MIGHT get fuckin sued..god knows man..)

c class ward..

gross gross gross..

all female..

this person started waving to air behind me..

omg!!

i was like SOOO freakin scared!!

wat's with tt rite??

talk to her got no reaction..

only know howta wave into space..

omg!!!!!

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obviously..my mood today ain't too good..

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2005..

orientation day..

tot i would get to know really really great ppl..(i did..in the end..)

xxx

suffered so fuckin much wid my first grp..

fuckin blind to not see i was 'diff' in their eyes..

i mean..they r nice and all..but i was nvr 'in' i guess..

yess,i'm still sore..

today..i'll let things out..

to peepz(don't be shocked k..)

i freakin cried like 5 to 6 times because of it..

went everywhere alone..

except for the times tt i could ACTUALLY run and catch up with them..

god knows..i've nvr passed 2.4 in sec skool..

felt so depressed..thinkin..

*sec skool..i had a steady circle of frenz..not say a lot of ppl HATE HATE me..why??is poly tt different??i began to blame on location..i'm an east kinda person..ppl frm jurong..woodlands and stuff probably not used to me..but i realised it was STUPID to think tt way..serious!! there were some blog entries with weird words lke:"ok..u win..i give up" tt was wen i decided to stop forcing i really mean FORCING myself to fit in with them..seriously cried like hell..i won't blame my results on the whole thing isnce i nvr could study....but i'll admit to this much;i really was bothered by the whole friendship thingy..hardly had the heart to study..AT ALL..*

xxx

but now..

i have given up..

let go..

and got to know another group of MUCH MUCH better ppl..

it's like a freakin new life..

instead of silence..it's laughter..mad laughter..

tho KC days were a lil' better since we were more familiar,we're still really good now..

i've been in heaven and down to hell..

now i'm back up there..

********KCians*********

tho KCians in my life have been dipping,i still love them..i dun think i can't bring myself to change as much as some of them..

now i'm thinking of the outing wid the KCians..

i love everyone of them!!

pris(love,keep up the funkiness)

eve(love,humble as always..wat's there not to love??)

stellz(love tho u still LOVE to ARGUE wid me haha!!)

zy(tho we spoke like 2 words??haha)

dan(love,see ya round skool)

mel(i'm realli glad we got over the weird not-talk-to-each-other time tt i probably caused..love u too k!!)

shann(love,careful shann..and it's not bout jon..)

-----those hu didn't go tt day------

jamie(love,well..i feel i know u so well tho we've NEVER actually been classmates!!MZ!!)

janice(love,we'll play stress again and u WILL stick ur head in the bin!)

nessa(love,i tell u everything..well,almost..i really dunno wat to say but i LOVE u!!)

winnie(love,i guess i irritate u..but it's for ur own good..u need it u noe?!)

joyce(love,stop takin my men..stick to ur gay KR haha!! love u la!!)

gladys(love,u're the babe...)

kerensa,piggy,meiyan,nic[love (x4)!!!!we will count down!!]

jessica(love...posh!!)

_____NYP_______

of coz..

tang(love,wat's wid the invitation to ivan and ur wedding?? keep dreaming babe..love ya!)

marie(i'll ask u to get over the past if i knew u could..so i'll juz say..be strong gal..u have us to lean back on..)

jo(love,i LOVE to bully u!! it's too easy..heex!)

jas(love,stop rollin ur eyes k!! one day it might get stuck..u'll really regret..wahaha!!)

farhana(love,don't think started with the rite foot but now everything's ok!!)

shiqa(love,it's a C C C C C C!!)

the 2 lims(love,ok..i get the simliarites of the 2 lims la..haha!!)

feifei(love,you were there with me durin depressing time..juz tt u didn't know u helped me.. i LOVE u for being so nice and there for me!!)

kat and the SKians..(love,the camp changed my thinking a lil'..so did u guys..love ya!! )

ferdy,xinyi,bingxin[love(x3) u noe u helped me thru polyclinic..or let's say,we helped each other..love love love!!(to joline..it's not oni ferdy so don't be angry k..)]muahaha!! i'm evil!!]

are there others??

jinfang,ting,sun,wangxin(love,u guys are the cutest!!)

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all these i've written..i've written with my heart..

it would be the last u hear of it..

bury the bitterness of 2005..

as for the love for my friends..

it's the last u hear of it as i want u to noe tt i love u guys forever..u don't need to be reminded..

it will just be..

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happy new year...

i hope..

lotsa things

library..again..
ppl are beginning to question me bout my library trips..
haha
anyway..the last post was me goin to town to meet winnie,huikim and peepz..
we stayed over at winnie's again..
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we played skype..
this thingy tt's like msn..
juzt tt u can 'call' each other..
we made fun like hell..
janice had her maid-like slang..
and she flirted wid some guy frm india..
calling him 'darling',saying 'i love u'..*pukes*
he was so horrible..
i was super disgusted by him tt i actually wanted to puke..seriously!!
but there was a jap guy..caught my attention..
not very cute..
we 'called' him..
he had this slang..deep rich voice..
walao..me and winnie...haha..dunno wat to say la..
another italian..good looking..but he went offline quite early..
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went swimming yesterday wid pris n nessa..
swim like 10 mins,nessa complain..say go sauna..
so go lor..
then go makan til very full..
bought some drinks n stuff and went home wid nessa..
as in she came over..
we moved the new BIG cupboard..
wiped it clean..
packed lotsa stuff tho it still looks messy..
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she left,i watched 'saw'...sick-in-the-head show..
this afternoon wokeup,watch 'all about love',the andy lau one
nessa say she cry like hell..
well...i felt it wasn't even sad lah..
nessa:wen u read this,leave a tag and PLS tell me which part is sad..
so i can go home,re-watch it and cry yah??
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tang say most prob not goin town countdown..
tang:u dun go then not fun leh..
so i called joline..cancel wid Kat and Waisiong lor..
like..
joline:u also have to be home by 1..then even more no fun..
so cancel lor..
so wasted..tot can go together..
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marie n tang:genting confirm not?? i wanna book tix n hotel ready!!
stella:thx for CIRCLING my face in ur blog yah?
it made my face look bigger than it already is..quite a feat huh?
winnie:it's true..the leehom pics r REALLY small..taiwan..here we come in 2 yrs time!!
nessa:u r supposed to be here wid me wen i write tis entry..u traitor!!
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i don't wanna work tml..
tml like no cup..
sun if i'm staying over somewhere..i'm sooo not working..
i soooooo don't wanna go for attachment pls!!
sianz!!!!!!!
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janice say later coming over..dunno if really will come over anot..
ask jamie n shann,they dun wanna reply..
stupid shann gonna meet boyfriend later. JON
so sian..i go meet cup ready..bye!!
*
P.S:the two ppl are here..namely jamie n shann...