i give up

ok u guys win..
i lose
i feel like crying

i dunno la
i put my bag on the chair next to me..
somehow it turned out juz tt way
i dun ppl to talk anymore..
i tired
i need to study alone but guess wat i'm doin now?
my blog...
i have 7hrs today to study my HS1036
shit shit
NYP finally found out bout cbox so tags can't be seen in skool anymore..
sianz...
tml got practical test somemore!
die die
but i have motivation!!
haha
utt went to paris the other day..
now he's back in thailand..
tonite 9pm comin back..
i'm having a headache..
double shit shit..

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you all have to click here and listen to the 2nd one..
juz click on the greenish button..
it's juz 30 secs of ur life..
it's worth it!
tml got theory test..
i didn't even noe tt got tt..
die!!
it was fun on sat..
but i'm kinda sick today..
everyone in class kinda noes i went escape wid the PRCs
word really spreads huh?
anyway..nuthing to hide
sun was even betta..
cup toked to me..
he said good nite to me..
thank god alistair wasn't there..
otherwise nessa will ask her who said good nite to me haha..
too bad!
i puked juz now..
on and off giddiness
i think nvr sleep enuf then go work
work O.T yesterday
worked til 12.30
gan gave us taxi and ask us go home at 11 plus
but we walk walk inside til 12.30 then go home
goin back on wed morning to collect o levels slip..
i miss the airport ready haha..

escape

went to escape yesterday..
went wid some frineds frm NYP haha
i loved it..
had such a beautiful time!
once again,how happy can a gurl get
now in transit..
see lotsa toro fans outside..
who noes..yet another energy bastard haha..
an least ex-energy..
still sucks and will suck forever!
at escape oso saw his a.s down there
tt was the oni thing tt spoilt my wonderful day!
i dreamt of a certain someone.. haha!

not very happy

ok..today was not very good..i mean
yah we can joke joke bout guangjun but not tell his friends wat
i guess huda they all realised tt i was kinda pissed..
i tried to lighten the mood but i guess i was a little angry
tml after skool,mum's gonna pick me and the girls up to T.M
watch amityville horror
then come over to my place to look see
then over to angel's to swim and finish the presentation
i lost my interest in guangjun in a few mins..
i'm not happy
but angry's too strong a word..
i dun blame anyone..
i'm juz pissed wid the current situation
i dun wanna lose a friend like him juz becoz of a feeling tt's not not big at all..
compared to cup,jun can kill himself for all i care..
i miss cup!
guangjun is juz play play oni..
sigh..
i hope jane understands..
-i really really dun like it today!-
if anyone feels sorry,dun be..
the teasing was fun and funny
juz tt it's bout time it stopped la..
sigh...
it's gone a little too far for my comfort i guess..
if i kinda offended anyone wid this entry..
i'm sorry..dun mean it..

i love skool..

today's a nice nice day..
skool at 8am,lecture
9-12 break
12-1pm lecture
1-2 break
2-4,lecture
then go home!!!
today is lecture day!!!!!!!
frm 11-12pm i was outside lecture 3
so we kinda talked took pics together
so cute!!
i'm in heaven..
got number ready la!!
heh heh heh
fri went to work..
saw D for a split sec..
ok,dun call D..call erm..cup..
i have no idea where tt came frm but call cup frm now on
coz nessa keeps thinking his name start with D..
so cup!
miss cup..
sat had almira's 1st b'dae party..
had fun..
played x-box wid cousins
sun worked..saw gan
nessa came over..saw bang
alistair didn't get to see david yeo tho..
we went to see utt..he looked extra good!
had a cap on..
nessa didn't get to see him
bang ask her to :"walk with me a while"
she said "no"
then later keep complaining say she regret..
later got bio-science lecture..sianzzzzzz
my chin name's "an yue ling"
hahaha
fri had pax goin to cairo..
10++ bags for 160+kg
REFUSE to pay!!
hah!kena scolding by daniel and douani!
deserve it!
Daniel's relly nice..
saw this guy goin to hong kong..
he had one of the most perfect face on this earth..chinese
betta than J,ben,zhi,will and obviously cup..
me and alistair saw him at the same time..
we both totally stunned!
alistair totally stopped walking..
i continued but i was juz speechless my god!
the features r juz..totally perfect and they go so well wid him..
i frm far see he very tanned..
his hair oso very nice..(nothing much..common sight at airport)
but wen he turned..whoa!
and he obviously saw me and alistair staring like hell!
no one i've seen in my life can compare!! i swear!

ben's review by sony music!

Ben Adams is a rare find in pop these days. In an industry only just getting over the ripple-effect of one-too-many TV talent shows, not only can he sing, write and produce his own material, at the tender age of 23, he’s already gained enough experience in the music industry to call his own shots. From singing for the Pope in a children’s choir at the age of ten to partying with Har Mar Superstar today and somehow capturing the whole experience in three minutes and seven seconds of perfectly sleazy contemporary pop, Ben’s musical endeavours surprise and exhilarate at every turn, and mean only one thing – he’s ripping up the rule books of what constitutes pop music and doing things his way. These are no idle claims. At a time when ‘pop’ is a dirty word, Ben provides an unselfconscious alternative to the devaluing effect reality TV has had on the genre. “The pop industry would have us believe that young music fans are too stupid to grasp or embrace new ideas,” Ben states. “That’s rubbish. If music doesn’t move forward, it just dies.” Ben has found a natural home at the new BMG label Phonogenic, whose success with Natasha Bedingfield has already redefined a number of preconceptions about solo singer songwriters. Flicking through Ben’s new tracks, from the slick, world-class future R&B sound of debut single ‘Sorry’, to the classic emotional highs and lows of the killer ballad ‘I Don’t Wanna Stay’ and the frenetic nightclub sleaze of ‘Get Off My Girl’, the whole thing sounds like Ben has simply crowbarred open his iPod and shaken his enire record collection into the mix, and so it comes as no surprise when Ben casually admits that his entire life has been consumed by music. 23 years in the making then, Ben’s debut solo album doesn’t disappoint. It’s dizzying stuff, veering from jazz to R&B to pop to soul and often doing all that in the space of a single verse and chorus, but the wide array of styles is no accident – and nor is the quality of the tuneage. “Pop music has really suffered from the ‘It’ll do’ mentality”, Ben shrugs. “But I didn’t want my career to be ‘quite good’ or ‘just good enough’. I wanted to smash the whole thing apart.” Ben grew up in Middlesex, in a modest house with a rabbit hutch in the back garden and Madness, James Taylor, Michael Jackson and Tracy Chapman on his mum’s stereo. Raised single-handedly by his mum without much spare cash around, Ben found that from singing ‘All Things Bright And Beautiful’ in school assembly to picking up classical piano, oboe and violin in music lessons, and then combining all that with an emerging passion for musicians like Prince, Queen and Stevie Wonder, he could escape into the world of music. And while it may seem unlikely in the context of the drinking, dirty dancing and dubious circle exploits of new songs like ‘Get Off My Girl’, at only ten years old, a cherubic Ben Adams was one of the UK’s top choristers. Having won a scholarship based on his musical talents he found himself based at St Margaret’s Westminster Abbey, regularly performing for some eminent audiences (The Queen, The Pope), touring through all the major cities in Europe with the Choir and at one point taking lead on two of the Choir’s CDs – “Benedicamus Domino” and “Laudate Pueri”. Ben remembers his time touring with the choir as presenting a steep learning curve at such a young age. “It was great in many respects. I sang with the choir most days of the week, Christmas Day and obviously every Sunday. I must have loved it to give up so much of my free time at that age. And we did get paid, only about £4 a service, but I thought I was rich!”. The experience would prove useful for his next career step. “If you are classically trained, which I was, it pretty much equips you to sing any kind of music. I’m thankful I was taught to sing at such a young age because it teaches you how to maintain your voice, which is really important, especially when you’re on tour.” His experiences in the choir turned him onto all types of music. “Anything to do with music excited me. I remember sitting at home every Friday watching Top Of The Pops, and wanting to be on it so much. I’m very lucky the way things panned out.” In 1997, Ben joined a band called A1. History may not have been kind to A1’s brand of Technicolor pop but between 1999 and 2002 they scored a string of Top 10 hits – all but two of which were written or co-written by Ben. A1’s finest hour came with the first single from their third album. Kick-started by Ben during a frustrating group songwriting session, ‘Caught In The Middle’ was ostensibly about an unhappy love triangle, but with hindsight its themes spotlit the musical tensions facing A1 as they approached their third album, and signalled a huge change in musical direction for the band. Gone on that third album were the high-octane disco stylings of the band’s first two albums. In their place was a sophisticated guitar sound courtesy of sought-after producer Mike Hedges (U2, Travis, Manic Street Preachers), who had been invited to work on a handful of songs and was so impressed with the band’s songwriting that he stayed for the whole album. ‘Caught In The Middle’ became one of A1’s best selling singles; a reward, for Ben, that proved versatile songwriting had a place in the charts and that pop fans are only too happy to be challenged. “A1 was a great experience but I always felt it was a rehearsal for my solo career. I am a lot wiser to the industry so I can avoid the usual mistakes people make first time round. It’s like anything – the more you do it, the better you are at it.” When A1 came to a natural end, Ben was bombarded with all the predictable offers of work you might expect to head in the direction of someone who public persona had been permitted to extend little further that floppy hair and occasional winks to camera. In spite of having left A1, his record label Sony, his publishing company and his management, Ben turned them all down flat. “I was looking at the bigger picture,” he remembers, “and I didn’t want anything along the way to ruin it. But at the same time, I knew I couldn’t just sit around.” In fact when Ben came down to earth with a bump, he simply hit the ground running. He called Mike Hedges, and asked the producer for his advice on what equipment would be necessary to build up his own demo studio into something with which he could make hit records. One hefty investment later, Ben was ready to start work. He even bought himself a guitar, but he soon realised that recording an album’s worth of Caught In The Middle-style guitar-pop songs and conforming to the expectations of what musical direction he should be heading in was every bit as pointless as accepting a role in Holby City. Undeterred by the minor setback, Ben became a hermit, locking himself in that home studio and barely getting out of his dressing gown for an entire year. Unsurprisingly his long-term girlfriend left him, but the work continued; getting up in the afternoon and working through until 5.00am. “I was a nightmare to be around,” he admits. “I didn’t want to be around other people, I didn’t want to go out. I knew that I had to put my all into doing music, because I’d thrown myself into it to such a degree that there just didn’t seem to be any other option.” In search of perspective on his songs – some voice of objectivity after two years of climbing the walls – Ben brought in some of his favourite songwriters. One revelation was flying to LA to work on ‘Get Off My Girl’ with (and to hang out with) Har Mar Superstar – a larger than life party animal who drew out some of Ben’s surprising songwriting quirks. “I just loved his music. It’s very inventive and fresh. I’m not interested in writing songs which have been heard a million times before. It’s really important for me to push the boundaries, whether it be musically, vocally, performance, and I think Har Mar is on the same tip in this respect. It’s been great to work with people who are a little bit out there. I’d say to Har Mar, ‘I’ve got a weird idea.’ He’d go ‘I’ve got an even weirder idea’. I’d say ‘Brilliant, let’s record it!’.” Ben spent just short of a month in Los Angeles working with Har Mar. “We’d work during the day and go to some crazy places in the evening. He’s a very funny guy.” Ben sounds chuffed, but from hitting the ground running two years ago to already being at a steady sprint in 2005, he has every right to be. He’d love to write for other artists, he says, but he’s taking things one step at a time, and focussing on his own career. “The songs on the album are about my life, and the things I’ve experienced. Although I’m only 23, I’ve already been through a lot. Writing songs for me is like writing a diary, except one that can be read by everybody.” It won’t be long before those other artists are battering down his door anyway - Ben’s is state-of-the-art pop music, as broad in its influences (on ‘It’s Brutal Out There’ you’ll hear Ben singing opera in the opening bars) as it is deep in its lyrical significance (the beautiful potential album closer ‘Broken Bird’ was written for Ben’s mother). “Sometimes when you’re a writer, the powers that be want to put you in a box which can squash creativity. I didn’t have any of those boundaries on me, so I had free reign to do and say what I wanted. If I wanted to take jazz chords and use them over a hip hop beat with some opera riffs then I could. In fact, the more unique the songs were, the more encouragement I got.”Ben’s view of the results – “everything’s slotted into place without having to force it” - might sound as if he’s taken it all in his stride, but there’s been no complacency. “Pop music has become so unadventurous, but to me that’s like someone throwing down a gauntlet. I know that I’ve got to step up my game at every opportunity, and that’s what I’ve tried to do with these songs. Now I just can’t wait for the world to hear what I’ve been doing for the last two years. To be honest, I never even knew I had it in me…”


ben rocks!!
-angelyn

in lab as in clinical lab!

haha
huda takin my bp while i type wid left hand haha
saw him!!
he waved!!!! huda says: walau...so excited...siao ah u....ask 4 his number lah...not blood type... ;>
heehee
other grps playin music etc..
i helped a little wid marie's blog..tangwee too...
haha..i expect some thanks man..
nessa say oni if abang workin then she go back airport see utt..
watched chase..
the part he said 'bye'...so sad!!!!!!
his voice was like breakin kind..
i hope i get to see D today..
the sad part bout fridays is..
i wun get to see J til tues
my assessment's on 1st june..
nessa on 2 june..
his on 3 june
muahahhahahaahhahaa!!!!!!!
if stuff goes well..i'll put an entry bout utt later..
chao!!

not tt happy after all

juz finished a very quick lecture
but still not happy
half-asleep
not a very successful lecture..
it's not becoz of who ever some of u think it is
it's not!
can't wait for tml!
goin work!
goin see utt!
i'll try and convince nessa to come along
she very very happy today as a certain abang..
i nvr say who ok!
not saying which one but a CERTAIN abang msged her..
YAY!
but today's good enuf i guess
tml got no lecture..
tt's the sad sad part ahha
friday..tml...work..
he..
ok..
i'm happy again!
but who noes..
not confirm..

how happy can a 16 yr old gurl get??

listening to the new remix for ben's 'sorry'
rox like hell!!!!!
i love love him!
who doesn't?!
ok take it tt i didn't ask!
hmph!
monday has been changed til next sat
so tis week and next week both change work frm sat to fri
haha
it's ok..i'll wait!
good things are worth waiting
very good things indeed
next wed me and nessa wans to go back skool collect o levels cert
wonder if the rest of the grp wans to go together not..
i miss all of u my friends!
wen i dun contact u,doesn't mean tt i dun think of u guys
i do
but i guess my fears are the same as many of yours..
awkardness..
but i do miss u guys!!!!!
had three hrs of lecture frm tis morning at 8 AM!
after the first hr we had a short 10 min break..
went outside as inside too cold..
i was sitting
he came over
haha
talk to me
then jane oso came..
he's o+
she's A,if i'm not wrong!
haha
i asked if they joined the TB thing he say no! no! no! wen he heard they'll take the blood
but later practical need to prick own finger for blood
he pricked his own for his class..
wow!
heehee..
he asked bout sat haha
yesterday after the cbl i went wid nessa to north canteen
saw him quite far away..
i shouted his name
he turned and waved and waited til we walked to him haha
then we were tokin bout sat again
then he asked if i was the oni s'porean..
stupid nessa purposely say"ya! she so good rite??!!"
obviously me and her gets wat she's tryin to say ..
idiot!
haha
helping huda with her blog..
later still got 2 hrs of bio science*groans!* lab
and 2 hrs of bio-sciebce*groans* lecture (yay!!!)
bling*: happy belated b'dae bling*!!! so sorry!
u noe i love u!! haha
tt's a friend kinda love mind u!
haha
i noe ur heart oni belongs to luohan la..

hahaha i lovin' it!

i have great plans for monday!
mon got vesak day holiday!
great great plans!
hope everything goes thru!
it better!
nessa's soooooooooo gonna kill me wen she hears!
soooooooooo
sooooooooo
gonna kill me!
but!
i can threaten her wid our a old neo-cards pic
hahahahaha
i said i'll show it to a-bang..
haha
anyone rmb how she used to look?
haha
i'm soooooo protected!

in skool

bought nursing uniforms today..
66 bucks
did a totally failure kinda presentation
it was so last min as in we did it within 1/2 an hr
bag's like heavy like hell!
sianz..
i love utt haha
new skin..
so cute
i like it!
later malay class..i didn't bring book!
dun care
jimmy say wanna treat us eat fish and co..(tang,it's not ur jimmy la)
hahaha
mum goin to collect my pay frm GE as i in skool wat..
today got no lectures..i so sad muahahaha
airport was good over the weekend
saw saw saw
there were lotsa cute angmohs too!
i uplifted wrong tix for silkair flight
dun care
i dun like the officer anyway..
STUPID ALISTAIR
goin over to sats oso nvr tell me!!!
such a GOOD friend!
hmph!!

i'm reall happy!

hahaha
how happy am i?
i can't even describe
who knew?
hahaaa
so cute!
he rox!
i rock!
ben rox!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
malay elective ended early
one and a half hrs early in fact
have to go home meself..
nessa's pullin me to J8
i said if she take neoprints then i go wid her lor
...
new cheese skin
yay!
J
J
J
J
nessa's chasing me!
someone ask her to go back to bang pls!
come and disturb me!
now who's beggin who to go where???!!!
hmph!

sian

juz saw utt
tot can juz look at him he dun see us
scully he saw so we wave and he waved oso...so cute!


blog got huge prob
will make it properly asap!

PS

i dun LOVE dolphin bay
but i tot i coulde piss nessa as she loves it so much hahaha

It's a good day

oni 3 hrs of studying today..now break
later got one more hr
no lecture today which means no *beep
*hahah
nessa'll be rolliong her eyes now
saw him outside tut rm then said hi to him
hahaha
fauzy's jealous
haha
juz jokin
now wearing airport skirt so later dun need change
so later can see
he
who
is d
haha
nessa's so gonna wanna kill me!
haha
i'm in a gd mood la
took neoprints wid huda at woodlands yesterday
then bought colour contacts..
took 3 hrs to put one on
pain like hell!
took it out to sleep
today cannot put on again!
crap!
bloody cheap sia
$19 oni!
k la
tt's bout it..
chao!

late nite

went out wid gladys n nessa..
watches 'hse of wax'
gladys thru out the show keep goin to puke
haha
it was gross
took neoprints
later goin wid huda
go get sumthing i've wanted for real long
go take neoprints wid her too


didn't really sleep at all..
wrote in my diary some new confessions tt i didn't even wanna admit to myself..
i'll let a couple of words out here
i'm..
i 'like'
mabbe madly like tis guy
man
wateva
i love
airport
long time
if anyone figure tt out
i go to work
for
he who has she
not sure
i'm mad
i dun like 'like'
tt china guy
it's juz play
but there's someone
not even nessa or alistair can eva guess
they wouldn't noe
they came too late
they'll nvr noe
no one will ever noe
i'll bring it to my grave
he still
airport there
dun ask me
even if u do i wun
i miss
i cry
i smile
but i dun noe
D'll nvr noe
i'm in tt kinda weird mood
AGAIN
eveytime
tots
he
AGAIN
i dun make sense
but i decided the china guy's
diff kinda
erm
ya
liddat

At com lab

haha..
thanks to kak mai..
he oso over here..
nessa's next to me probably wanting to kill me and insulting me on her blog at tis second..dun care
he doin e learning
i down here doin blog haha
later goin to meet gladys..
so long nvr see haha
muz take neoprints..
i miss ben
so cute
i'm in such a smiley mood!
hahaah
i think i'll let out a secret..
i like ..
airport...
no one noes
anyway smart enuf to put the pieces together?
dun care
it's been in me so long
let out a couple of words
but even if
no one will
noe who?
hm..
he's a he
i'm a me
there r 3 hes
in my me
now
i saw nessa's first sentence..
'angelyn's such an idiot'
i MAY have deserved tt
dun care
dun wanna go skool tml lah..
or ever again
i love it but
sianz
not used to studying i guess
**lalaland**

new taggie

dunno if the tag board can work not..

uh oh..

i got to tok to him..
and as huda put it,touch his hand..
he called my name.
not properly tho..
i know his name..
i'll kill fauzy..
but i guess i thank him too
lecture ended an hr early..
thus in library writing this
tml will go out with gladys and nessa
went to bugis yesterday wid nessa
took neoprints 3 times..
spent so much..
juz called alistair..
she say my pay in the G.E guy's hands..
300 plus..
ok la,considering workin 2 days a week oni
he laughed at me..
he got gf..
hmm..
haha
i'm so crapped out..
i love skool but i absolutely
HATE BIO-SCIENCE!
i nvr passed bio in sec skool anyway..
sat got class bbq at bernard's hse
so need to change off day
oni fourth week
and
we have a couple in our class ready
lala..i miss ben..
i love michael J.
i watched his music video
on the aids boy
called 'gone too soon'
cried..
tt's why i was late for lab..
thank god none of my classmates knew
but it's juz a moment thing..
so many affairs in the airport
guys betraying their wives so openly..
at least u can say D.Y and sadzaly doesn't..
(i bet at tis point of time,i have nessa and alistair's full attention)
muahahahaha..
kk
goin now

sianz..

there's tis guy..cute..cute..cute... dunno wat's his name..
nessa says she'll help me find out..
crap..i'm so dead haha..
everyone says his ugly..where got?
oh no..
haha..it's funny..
now in library..saw a couple of biz guys..
they wearing suits..amazing hair..but..
sianz..i'm so not studying..
everyone has done e-learning except me..
i forgot my password..AGAIN!
it'll be the 2nd time i break my password..
i juz finished watching 'grease' in the library..
got 4 hrs break juz now 11 til later 3pm..
skool ends at 7pm today! so rubbish..
stupid elective..lucky oni mondays..
sat went to work..O.T til 2am..
gerald treat me and alistair supper..my one plate of chicken rice,$6++
gan went to austria.lucky him..then again,he not very lucky..
i'm tokin rubbish due to lack of sleep..
sigh..

BEN'S "SORRY.."

www.benadams.uk.com
tt's ben's webbie..his new single can be heard and new video too! it rocks like hell..
new photos of the new him..he no longer is tt cutesy guy i'm still mad about..but his a new 'rock' kinda guy i'm starting to love..
..doesntake a fast look't hurt..heehee..

at skool

yesterday went over to airport,labour day,nessa treat rodeo wings! heh heh..
ed*** finally admitted something really important bout ne*** haha..as long as the involved party undestands can ready..haha..u're so gonna kill me rite? haha
david yeo bought alistair b.k drink she so happy haha mad..
now in library..wanna go change skin but very trouble-some..

hmm

saw utt the other day..but alistair wasn't wid me so i happily went alone! didn't dare to go up to him la but he wore the same green shirt as tt day hahha..his hair rocked like hell la haha..later goin with nessa and alistair to airport and go see him again..now at bro's hse SUPPOSED to be tuitioning sheralynn..hah! not workin!!! sianz.. leon jay williams checked in at the business class row yesterday! argh!!!!!!! he said he comin back in 7 to 8 months..wat's he doin in s'pore??!! hmph! but he's back in taiwan now anyway sigh!!!!!!!!!! yesterday workin at row 3..dennis,his mentee and fendi was next counter and alistair saw fendi's underwear and asked me and sharon jie to see..like oh my god!!!!!!
IT WAS RED WITH LACE!!!!!!!!!! LAUGH LIKE HELL..I DARED ALISTAIR TO TELL DENNIS AND SHE DID! AND HE SHOUTED OUT:"FENDI! WHY U WEAR RED UNDERWEAR??!!"
like everyone heard hahaa..
nic tse singin now erm...a bit weird wierd one,nessa,enjoying rite?
kk gtg